1.18.2012

I'm a baby, and I'm holding a baby.

There may have been some tears shed tonight, (melodramatic ones at that), unwarranted.  I may have thrown a piece of cake on the floor (don't worry, it stayed on the plate after the bounce). Really?  I did that?  I may have sat on the couch for twenty minutes with my hands in fists pushed up against my eyes.  Good thing Carl is a saint.  What was all this about, you ask? To quote myself, "I'm sick of making stupid things."  I don't think temples are stupid.  I don't think art or paintings are stupid.  I don't think writing is stupid, I just sometimes (or a lot of times)...am...immature? I just sometimes don't like the way I do things, but too bad, I'm me and I have no other way of doing them.  I think today was a throwback to about 1987, when I was a mere three years old.  Back in the day when I demanded my mom cut out the elastic from all of my clothes, including underwear, because I just couldn't handle the annoyance of something trying to bind me all up like that.  This morning I insisted that Carl cut the elastic on the sleeve of my shirt, while it was on my body.  He was hesitant, but since I have been acting like my three-year old self all day, I was indignant and insisting and he shut his eyes and snipped my fancy shirt.  Also, this afternoon, I was in the sandpit with Remy.  Not perched on the edge watching, but in.  I realized at one point that I was way more into sifting sand and building up towers than he was.  What? I thought writing this out would make me feel better, less embarrassed.  It didn't really.  I guess though, I've been touting honesty in blogging, so this makes me a shining star.

2 comments:

Deja said...

Last night my kitty scratched me and I burst into tears--heaving, horrible sobs. And I couldn't stop. Sam had to take me to the sink and wash it out and tell me the kitty still loved me.

What I'm say is: I feel three years old, too.

You decidedly do not make stupid things. If that helps any.

darcie said...

I'm sorry if the visual of you throwing cake and saying "i'm sick of making stupid things," made me laugh. if i had been there it would have made me cry, but now that it's in the past...
and also, it would be sad if i thought you made stupid things because it would be painful. but since it's not true...