12.22.2008

i used to play this game in my journal, it's called, at this very moment...

i love my new job.  i'm going to bed early.  i'm not as social as i used to be.  i read a lot lately, in the morning and evening.  i'm reading a lot about midwifery and natural birth, i'm way more interested in it that i thought.  i'm thinking about applying to a graduate writing program.  i like provo.  i wish i could find a flight to portland after christmas.  my show opening is happening in 2 1/2 weeks, which means i also turn 25.  that seems old.  i have volunteered myself as a free babysitter in the sunday ward announcements (not in my singles ward).  i love snow.  i feel sad about friends i've lost.  i'm happy to be with my family.  i'm glad we can make new friends, even though they never replace the old ones. i'm making new friends at my work, they are maybe 35 years older than me and seem to have a lot to teach.  i'm freezing.  i haven't changed out of my gym clothes.  my dad shoveled all the neighbors driveways.  the doctor thinks my kidney is falling apart, it probably is, but doctors make me anxious.  i'm excited for marc to come stay at my house tomorrow.  i'm excited to use my new paintbrushes.  my new co-workers think i'm really healthy, and now i have to keep up the appearance.  

3 comments:

Sofia Deyanira said...

You have about 30 thoughts at one time too? I thought it was just me. I think all women think this way, in layers, simultaneously. That's why we are so different than men.

Midwifery and natural birth. My friend here who is a doula and wants to go to school to be a midwife recommended a few things. 1. the book, Birthing From Within which is really good. and 2. the documentary called, the business of being born. It will help you follow your instincts about hospitals and the medical field vs. the naturopathic and midwife perspective.

I am thinking about midwifery or naturopathic learning after anthropology here at psu. I really want to have an empower women to learn natural medicine and instinct again, as I am also myself learning...

Where do you work now? Do you still work with the little kids?

Lizzy Lambson said...

So you have a new job and you're done with school? Where are you working? What do you think of it? Can we hang out again sometime?

Rachel. said...

at this very moment I am thinking about how much I like you.